Okay so the whole thing with Joslyn, I think made things even worse!!!!!!! She now thinks any time I tell her to do something she has the upper hand. So now I am having to bring her back to reality. So frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!
So Today I totally lost it. I feel so horrible!!!!!!! With everything going on with Joslyn, David and his mouth, and Then Samuel decided to Pee in a basket in his room which was a fabric one and it got all over his floor too... so after all that I lost it!!!!
So I sat down and starting reading In James and this is what I came across.........
James 3:5-10
5Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.
7All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, 8but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
These verses reminded me of something I saw at a conference. My Angry words destroy my children like a fire destroys a forest. Think what starts a fire in the woods just a little spark. There for one little mean, angry word will set that fire real quick and it not only destro
ys my children but it sets me on fire as well. It makes me roar louder and longer. It likes starts my yelling and it just keeps getting hotter and Hotter. Well that is what happened today. One thing on top of another and there I went flaming like a forest fire and destroying all the little trees in my way!!!!!!!
After realizing what I did, I just cried. I need to just turn everything over to Jesus. I can not get full grasp over my anger with out him. I can not do this alone!!!!!!!! With Christ all things are possible!!!!!! I need to hold tight to that. I feel a lot of the time I am never going to be the mother I so want to be but I know that With Christ I can be the Mother he wants me to be and that is all that matters and I need to trust him and he will lead me!!!!!!!!
Dear Jesus,
Please put out the fire that burns so hot in my mouth. Heal my children from burning words today. Lord I love them so much and I don't want to hurt them anymore. Please guide me and lead me!!!!!! Help me to be the mother you want me to be!!!!!!! Help me to learn to hold my tongue and to listen to your guidance before I open my mouth. Please protect my children from any spark that may exit my mouth.
AMEN
So Today I totally lost it. I feel so horrible!!!!!!! With everything going on with Joslyn, David and his mouth, and Then Samuel decided to Pee in a basket in his room which was a fabric one and it got all over his floor too... so after all that I lost it!!!!
So I sat down and starting reading In James and this is what I came across.........
James 3:5-10
5Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.
7All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, 8but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be.
These verses reminded me of something I saw at a conference. My Angry words destroy my children like a fire destroys a forest. Think what starts a fire in the woods just a little spark. There for one little mean, angry word will set that fire real quick and it not only destro
ys my children but it sets me on fire as well. It makes me roar louder and longer. It likes starts my yelling and it just keeps getting hotter and Hotter. Well that is what happened today. One thing on top of another and there I went flaming like a forest fire and destroying all the little trees in my way!!!!!!!After realizing what I did, I just cried. I need to just turn everything over to Jesus. I can not get full grasp over my anger with out him. I can not do this alone!!!!!!!! With Christ all things are possible!!!!!! I need to hold tight to that. I feel a lot of the time I am never going to be the mother I so want to be but I know that With Christ I can be the Mother he wants me to be and that is all that matters and I need to trust him and he will lead me!!!!!!!!
Dear Jesus,
Please put out the fire that burns so hot in my mouth. Heal my children from burning words today. Lord I love them so much and I don't want to hurt them anymore. Please guide me and lead me!!!!!! Help me to be the mother you want me to be!!!!!!! Help me to learn to hold my tongue and to listen to your guidance before I open my mouth. Please protect my children from any spark that may exit my mouth.
AMEN
I am very proud of the mom you are and the mom God is creating you to be. You have a lot of wisdom for a young mom. Keep your focus my dear. God is amazing and children are resilient. Thanks for you willingness to be transparent and I am sure your willingness will speak to other women who struggle with the same issues.
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Mom