Samuel, What Have I turned you into????????

I have been stressing about this question for a month or so. Here is my sweet little boy who was always really good, Cuddly, Nice and then BANG. He changed. I am sure it wasn't over night but I just didn't see it. Now he yells at every one, gets angry at the drop of a hat and he lets you know it. I wonder who he acts like, HELLO ME!!!!!!!!! That just breaks my heart.

Yesterday, I was putting him down for his nap (which most of the time is a challenge) and I had him in my arms and I went to kiss him and he was trying to be funny and act like he was going to bit me, so I grab his face and kissed his cheek. WELL, he didn't like that so he grabbed the back of my head and pulled my hair, not just any hair the little tiny hairs on the back of my neck, well that set me off. First I screamed and put him down, spanked him and put him to bed. Then I left the room and lost it. I started crying so hard. WHAT HAVE I TURNED HIM IN TO!!!!!! He is mean to me and everyone else he sees. If he doesn't get what he wants watch out. Man that sounds so much like me. OUCH!!!!! That really hurts.

So now I am looking at him and I am wondering what I need to do to fix this. I know I have not lost him yet he is only 3 almost 4 So here I am planing a game plan. My plan is to not let him get away with anything. Which I have let him get a way with a lot before. I always told David to leave him alone or to give him what ever he wanted thinking that David was the problem (POOR DAVID, I know) Which that was so not fair to him so now I am changing my thinking. I know that this is going to be hard for me but I know that "Through Christ anything is possible" So I will lean on him and whip Samuel back in to the sweet little boy I know he is.