Children Learn what they SEE!!!!!

One of the things that keeps coming to my mind is " My children will learn from what they SEE!! NOT what they Hear me saying!!!!!"

So what are my children Learning from me? Well nothing really good some days. I have been watching my kids and the things that frustrate me the most are the bad traits of me that I have taught them. So what do I do with that. Well, I get mad, yell, discipline but then am I doing the same to myself or excepting the picture God is showing me of how I am. Well It is time to change ME!!!!! Not the Kids ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since I have gotten back from a Hearts at Home conference "I" have really been trying to watch my mouth, my words and reactions. "I" Have been doing great at that. (get the I part) There are times when I would lean on God but not very much. The last couple of days have been hard and all I need to say is 3 letters PMS. I now realize that in order to make this a life changing thing I need to let God lead and take control of me. I NEED TO LET GO!!!!!!!!! Let me say that again so I can get it through my think Head "I NEED TO LET GO!!!!!!!!!!!" Okay God CHANGE ME!!!!!!!!

Now I need to get in God's Word. Let him discipline me and take it and change. That is not going to be easy. I will be like my children when I have to do it to them. But I have to be humble and TAKE IT!!!!!!!! SWATS AND ALL :) I know it is going to hurt but in the end it will be worth it. I know that some days will be hard and I will have to remember to lean on God even harder those days. For I know He doesn't give me anything I can not handle. I need to really remember that.

I also need to remember that in all this change God will be changing my children as well. And to think God is going to allow be to be part of that. Watching my children Grow is a true blessing. Oh How I am blessed!!!!!!!! I really Love my kids and I don't want them to grow up and say mom why did you act like that and have to struggle with the same things that I do because I chose not to change me. So now it is time with God to CHANGE ME so that my children will Learn good things and not bad!

Those of you who do read this please pray for me and that I will constantly lean on God and Listen to His guidance.